Kurt just started the drip about 15 minutes ago...two and a half hours after we got to the hospital.
I sometimes wonder if the medical profession realizes the value of time -- every moment we have is precious, and I would rather not spend any more of them at the hospital than absolutely necessary. The nurses tell us to be patient, to relax, to just accept that things move slow. Do they not understand how hard that is?
Maybe it bothers me because every minute we spend here, cancer stares us in the face. Kurt is doing so well, and is so healthy, that when we aren't here, I can often push cancer to the back of my mind. Not so much when he is hooked up to the drip. I suppose I just want out of here so we can go back to living and not thinking about cancer.
So, I'm pretty much going to grab hold of the chemo bag and squeeze hard -- a little assisted drip can't be bad, can it? ;)
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Jennifer-- squeeze that IV bag a little extra hard for me, too! It's so hard being so far away; it's easy to let my everyday responsibilities remove myself from your reality. But every day something happens to remind me that you and Kurt are fighting cancer and my stomach is instantly in knots. I'm thankful you both have precious time away from that chemo ward, and you can continue to LIVE without cancer occupying every thot, even tho' I know it is never far away for you two. I'm not going to learn patience where Kurt's cancer is concerned. I refuse to accept anything, except complete healing when the cancer is gone! Guess we just have to continue to stay busy, and keep living, to help pass the time. My love, thoughts and prayers are all I can give you two right now, and as a mom, that just doesn't seem quite enough. Keep fighting!
I love you both!
Hello Kurt/Jen,
SO GOOD to get your update. I get a tad anxious when I don't get your news, so I am glad to hear from you. I am going to "Pray & Fast" for you Kurt, for the next two weeks. I will eat one moderate meal a day; & the time I would be preparing a meal or eating, I will spend thanking God for your complete healing; praying for your constantcy in believing & standing. Praying that God will strengthen you physically, and mentally; & of course that you will grow in HIM, spiritually, each day, also. Remember, kiddos, that there is LIFE in the Word; I trust that you are taking doses of the WORD each day. I know that I can't live w/out it. I have learned that
I need to take my "Word Meds" at the beginning of my day; then the rest of the day goes much better and much more peaceful. It's called prioritizing. The most important thing in my life is starting my day with the LORD and reading His WORD. That spiritual food is my most important food.
I continue doing what I know works -- Feed on the Word; Obey the Word. Get to know GOD!! I know I am preaching again, but Kurt & Jen, the WORD works. I can't say it too strongly. Both of you, take care of each other & be encouraged in the Lord. Lots of people wanting to help you -- Don't do this alone -- Call on your families and friends. We all want to help. I suppose this all sounds redundant, but I stand on what I've said. God is still a God of miracles -- & I believe HE has one (probably more)in the offing for you two. Finally, I end with PTL & PRAISE THE LORD!!!! Love to you -- G'ma D
ADDENDUM: I forgot to add in my last comment, that if any one wants to join me in prayer and Fasting, please do. I believe there is power in numbers, so lets give up a bit of our life for Kurt. I don't have to know; just let the Lord know.
Until the next "good report" from Kurt, bye now.
G'ma D
Jennifer, you never were very patient, even when you were little. I can only imagine how difficult this is for both of you. It seems your lives are just one big hurry up and wait.
Just keep thinking of the day the cancer won’t even be allowed to look at you guys let alone stare.
Stay strong!
Love you both,
Aunt Trink
We are behind you all the way!!!! Lots of love and hugs to both of you.
I think I can speak for others, but it is really great getting these updates, not-to-mention general commentary from you guys at least once per week. mmmmmmmmtoasty - that's all I have to say about that. LOL stuff.
I'm really glad things are going well, all things considered. Its good to hear that you can get "away" from it during the week.
As far as your level of patience with the pace of health care - I don't think its going to get any better and I think you know that. So bite down heard, bring your laptop and learn to enjoy.
Talk to you soon.
BMR.
Kurt & Jennifer,
Just wanted to let you know that we (our women's church group, PWOC) are praying for you from over here in Germany.
Michelle (Duvall)
i had a little taste of the waiting this week when my mom had a colonoscopy (everything's fine, just a regular screening), but apparently appointments are sort of advisory. you will be seen when you are seen. waited on a 20 minute procedure for like 3 hours. i tried to make contact with my inner buddha, and cultivate patience and serenity, but no go. i am so glad kurt has so much strength. that is awesome that he is biking and getting ready to sail! hurrah!
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